Be a Doer not a Dreamer

I have been reading Shonda Rhymes book Year of Yes recently (yep I am pretty late to the party) and it was a bit of a slap in the face. I am a dreamer not a doer. I have spent so many years dreaming I may have even forgotten how to do.

I not only dream but I am a compulsive learner as I feel like that is moving me forward, it isn’t, it is just a form of procrastination in my life of daydreams. A way to avoid doing the doing that needs to be done.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t believe that I could have spent the last 30 odd years doing everything I wish I had done, that is unrealistic, after all I am a dreamer and a lot of those dreams are dreams for a reason. But I also dont think I could have done everything because I was still infact doing other things. I didnt do the things that lead towards fulfilling my dreams but I did the things that needed to be done to live and love and be who I currently am, and apart from not being as successful as I wish I was as a creative, I am actually pretty ok with myself, I would go so far as to say I have respect for myself and the other things that I have done to get here. I look back on my years with fondness, I have done a lot, I have lived a life. We all want more, sometimes that is possible, sometimes not. We cannot do it all and we cannot have it all but there is no harm in doing and seeing where that goes.

So maybe my dreams need re-dreaming or looked at from a different point of view or skill set. Maybe I can still achieve a version of those same dreams.